Well I am alive,

Sorry about the long and un announced absence, ive been having a lot of pain in my neck, wrists and bad leg, and I have honestly been a bit upset…I worked for the last few weeks on 1 assignment and I am scared half to death at the moment that I will get below a B Seriously I have never EVER done half as good as I do here, I always got D’s and C’s…I feel like that amazing student that used to make fun of me, and was a source of pride but anyway…

I have carpel tunnel, I have a bad ankle and knee, and I was in a car accident a few years ago, my darn neck has whiplash x.x the changing weather is making A LOT of pain.
And as of late I have been feeling a bit…Slouched, I am a Christian, you guys polly don’ t know that, and welll. They say you can’t be Gay and a Christian, and I have been pondering this, for a while, and I have been…Having a terrible time until something came to me a week or so at most ago… After going to communion and such, im fine, everyone's fine. It might not seem important to people but to me, it was VERY important, because well, you guys can guess haha. But anyway, now im at peace, and for freaks sake I am happy as heck ahahaha. Right now I am feeling like I am passing out, buuut that’s alright, im cleaning up a little, and I am going to start posting again today~ Thank you all for being awesome. Rk signing off, have a great day world!

Another Blog;

I have started another one, but no it isn't meant to replace this one bit. Its meant to help me get un-lazifyed at drawing http://draweverydayordie.blogspot.com/ it wasn’t long enough to say or die trying sadly. But that’s alright! I will in all honesty post more often then I have been, because I will be getting more into blogging and such..ANYWAY! Haha, get on with your great lives people! And thanks .

Sincerely,

Rk.

As of now

Well, I have been great actually, though I have psoriasis..SO that has come back out of remission… I still have a bad back and neck, but you know what I'm alive so there, I'm actually happy, and not stressed out by my ex’s mood swings and having to walk on eggshells. You never really notice what a situation is like until you are gone from it, and at the time I didn’t want to be gone, but hell am I happy now! Though I seem to be notable to eat anything, which sucks but all right. Found some friends, loving life, and continuing down the road that I am destined for, but just..So you guys know that’s where I have been as of late, I’ve been licking some wounds and such, have great days!

Going through heartbreak/pain?

Hello my friends! Today I am back in the saddle again, for anyone that is at a crossroads in their lives, here was a particular one in my life a bit ago..My mate of 2.5 years left, now while not a long time, emotions were built. After 5 months of depression, which wasn’t told to me just blew it on me one night after almost cheating on me (which was also told to me). Which ruined my Sunday, I was at a riveting church sermon, and well I was in a great mood when I come home to a text message, saying that I was almost cheated on, and that we have to have a long and hard talk the next day. The next day everything was laid out, and well I just lost it, the next day we talked again, and well, we..rather not me.. Decided on a “break” from the relationship for a little bit, but of course I wasn’t told that the intention was to break up but yet leave a door open if I was wanted again. And well, I lost it for days, then I went on the FIRST vacation in 11 years, and then they put it on me that no, its not a break, but a breakup. Soo happy vacation, didn’t enjoy Hershey one bit. The only thing that really helped was cling to what I believed in, and ask for strength and to be able to move on or what ever I am supposed to do. And, well.. Im not saddened by what went down anymore honestly, I am a little mad that someone would lie like that, but not upset, to tell you the truth I am actually quite happy as of late! But, really what this post was about was that, you have to have strength in these matters guys and gals! Time passes and I am stronger for every single experience, rather positive or negative.. In my next post, as of now! (First post of the day, I just hope that this will help someone out there, because that’s what I love to do).

Guess whom this will be?

Fun sketch so far, Im hopeing I don’t screw up hahaha, guess who this will be, it’s a character from one of my favorite RPGs…….. Took 2-3 minutes so far

Time, and Time again.

Things happen, things repeat them selves. Where does everything go? I don't know. SO today I broke up with my mate..’Scuse me Ex-Mate, and..I think I'm going to be ok.. Had a HUGE fight with my brother today, just over things, man I am sick of him rolling in and out of my life, he goes and comes back. I used to be affected by it a lot worse, but now I don’t really care too much. What I do care about is seeing him hurt my father each time he falls into the noose, he starts thinking “Hay..maybe me and him will have a good relationship after all!” And WHAM he stops coming around, and not because anyone said anything, because he doesn’t want too. Seriously guys, does anyone else have family that comes and goes? Like aloof sort of like a cat I suppose, of course dad loves him but I hates that he sees him a few months then he leaves for almost a year or more. Now this wouldn’t be too bad if he didn’t live 3 miles away, we try to call him but..No avail..SOO What ever happens happens, and life does go on. Just got to calm down, made mom lose her goose on it this time. Well peace out,

Ronin~

Well, Busy as a bee

Truly this has been a busy time, I got my first grade back a while ago, I got an A It was awesome haha. There really isn't anything amazing or funny that happened though a few days ago my dog put her butt in my face while I was sleeping..but that’s pretty normal..We had a sleep over/birthday party for my dog and her brother a few days ago, they never got along after we adopted them but they were perfectly good, though she's the smaller of the two (My dog) She make her brother her bitch, she wouldn’t let him do anything to me xD It was adorable, though its funny to see a bigger dog that reminds you of your own. Also he has OCD so we shone a light on the roof and he stared and ran after it, then he stood on his back paws/stood looking for it after it was gone for the rest of the night, twas funny haha. As you can tell I am very busy and I am sorry for the infrequent updates n_n; BUT Hopefully I can put some more rage on the page! Or something of the sorta.

But what I have to say is, if you’re a jet you’re a jet….Wow I am lame. /disapoint

Old Schools

They were a football orientated school (who would of guessed huh?), now I have never understood football, but recently read a book about some other things and read it is like chess..Sounds sorta neat since I love chess..ANYWAY back on the subject, my old school has cut the funding for arts even further, after buying a new a new stadium clad in sand stones all over the place, new bleachers that are GIANT, and new field houses, along with two giant buildings and paving the place around and decorating it. Its gaudy, and a waste..OH Wait they installed Field-turf too, which is used by colleges and the NFL stadiums, which cost ALOT if I remember correctly, they did everything including where the bleachers are. The turf cost at an upwards of 30million, I forget the exact price..Now. After spending all that on a LOSING team, that loses at a ratio of 75% of the time (calculated it from the last 4 years), and always lose at their own turf, was it worth it? Was it worth cutting arts, getting fully rid of music classes other than band and chores, and not letting any new students to join. And cutting art classes to 4 regular and 1 pottery/clay class (To be shared between the Jr And Sr High schools). Now..I would of stayed there had I not finished all the art classes..Even through the damn death threats I was still there, but I just hate that school.
Now I am enrolled in Art Instruction Schools and doing it from home while drawing on the side and working on shit. Anyway..After I do this I will do the mandatory classes at the local college and then go to Carnegie Mellon University of Art :)..I have to say ever since I got away from that shit hole..Well nice looking shit hole I suppose, I have been freakin’ happy and have gotten ALOT better at drawing! :D This has been freakin’ awesome…ATM: Finishing lesson 1, sending it in once finished and working on lesson two :D..Anyway just wanted to say that’s a big reason why I haven’t been updating regularly, I have been busy with schools, planning, drawing, funding..And so forth! While reading books..Anyway, once I get things back under control I will be updating regularly, but just saying..I am alive! :D

PS:I am 100%, nay 110% sure they could of afforded not cutting the arts.

Dear World,

Its time for me to be honest with the world and honest with the way I feel. From now on I have to be more honest..Honestly I having a lot of fun working on my first assignment of artschool! and I am proud of whom I am. *Choughs* For the first time ever.

Mt.Dew Supernova...

Well this is mostly a throwaway post, but one that is great to me...I LOVE Mt.Dew Supernova, I remember when they first ran it 2 years ago, I was alone, I was hateful, and I was just purely miserable. Its a sort of, black lining to the, oddly orgasmic(to me) Soda. Now I am not lonely, I am not so mean, and I am pretty alright other than depression, so it sort of gives me a feeling that. "Hell your depression is bad, that is true but it WILL get better." :) And for that I am quite glad!

Now for the 2nd part! Today I was sitting on the porch of our apartment house..thing(Seprate building, used to rent it out). And I found out that we have birds...above where I was standing, well luckily (I have no Idea how I didn't notice earlier), I saw a bird drop on the ground RIIIIGHT next to me, and then I was the hell out of there haha, luckily I moved, I looked back and one of the darn birds would of craped on me had I not moved.. So I feel rather lucky today :) Got a wonderful pop, thought of my past a bit, feeling sort of more enlightened towards the world. Well for now after this slight check in I am going to go for a few :), I wish you a wonderful evening/day!! (PS, Im sorry nothing really interesting happened ok? XD)

Wow great day, but yet not so great.

Today I found out that my grandfather is bruised and bloodied up and he doesn't even know how it happened.. They think he might have had a seizure, but me and my mother think otherwise. My grandfather drinks quite a bit… And he is only aloud 2 “nips” at the bar, sometimes he has more but he doesn't want to admit it..We think he had too many nips, fell and then is saying he can’t remember,becayse he gets in trouble if he drinks more than one…Its something he would do its hard to explain, today I am going to visit him as I usually do on Saturdays (Of course with grandma haha), she ended up hurting her back yesterday –_-; but anyway, I honestly think he just got really drunk..lol.

And now for the good news, I got a scholarship to art instruction schools~ They said im above average, I guess that’s alright but I can’t explain why I don’t feel like I deserve it, I just wanted to see the prices of the course I don’t feel worthy …What's wrong with me lol. Anyway..I am tiered from getting 5 hours of sleep last night..annnnd I am getting a chuckle out of shrek1, haven't seen it in years Peace out for the moment!

Yawn~

Sunburns hurt amirite? I am literally red! Its quite amazing its like I am a giant lobster! Which feels ironic is a way not really known…Anyway, down to business, today I was bored, went outside to find something to do, and somehow stayed out for 4 hours without putting sun lotion on my arms which I usually have covered up lol. I took some rather nice pictures though, everything is FINNALY in bloom!!! After having snow the other day (wtf?), we have FINNALY gotten it to be about 60-70( F ) here..Finally lol.

I sent in some forms and on my way home yesterday from walking I met a very strange man, he was wearing a bandana and smelled like Oregano mixed with Tofu, like you smell at health food stores…Seriously some of them give away food baked with that stuff as samples…Yikes. Anyway back on track; He was walking around and stopped me by saying “I can change your life, here take this coin and give it to the next person you see.” I looked at it, and off he ran, later I found out that he took the dollar bill I had in my pocket –_-… Honestly he freakin snatched it out of my pocket! There went my stamp money… But luckily for me I forgot to read that it didn't require a stamp to send it into the artschool…Sooo that was nice But..Honestly is stealing worth a buck? Morally and by the law, it certainly isn't lol. “I took a buck, I had to pay 500” or something like that…What ever, that guy was scary…Oh he gave me a nickel… Sooo..I lost $.95, oh well its not anything to be upset about .

HAPPY EASTER! 8-)

n_n Happy easter everyone! Have a wonderful day,week,month, and year!  

So lets get down to it, I am still sorta scared, I am scared the spider is camped out back there…that it is waiting to murder me!!! OMG!! ITS GONNA MURDER ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

No but seriously, spiders are scary shit lol.

MOTHER F***ING SPIDER!!

Alright we have, or almost all of us have had a spider land on your neck and try to suck our blood, but when your playing  a game and your focused, thinking how your going to get to the next level…or leveling up your…monster….uh yeah…They scare the shit out of you! I just jumped up and ran out of my room leaving my snes on x_x;. Not only is that fun but I am deathly afraid of bugs, especially spiders, I mean DAMN they scare me, but on my neck while I am distraced….Lol perfect storm…I hit it with a picture frame…uhh..Not sure if that did the job, but what ever!!! Soooo..I caught mew on pokemon red….What else to say…Lol. Nothing it seems? Well other than I feel like giving up on painting :\, I have’nt even improved 0.001 percent!! I really wish I could improve..but I can’t seem to *sigh* I really really really..REALLY hope that I can improve though :\….Oh wellz…I suppose things will be better when I am not so tiered…OH! That’s right happy easter…Wait I will just make a new post –_-; Haha anyway ttyl in the next post ina few mins.

Alrighty!

Got dungeons and dragons starter set for Easter They let me get it early! Mwahaha! I can’t wait to get some friends into it! Also got the first volume of Gurren Lagenn..Its been about a year and a half since I last saw it … And its linked to a complex backstory so no I will not tell you the events that transpired that lead to me and a dear friend (at the time), we used to watch a lot of stuff together…But time goes by and things happened, some mine some his, though since he left and after I stopped crying I have been happier than ever! Honestly, me and my love are happier now then we were then, and let me remind you we were around half a year together, and now at two years we are still very much happy and still very much in love. I love you darling <3
But back to the topic, I can't believe how much volume one holds, it holds at least 5-10 episodes of it, they really drew that series out it seems lol, but it was a great series…still is.
Well I have to go visit my grandparents..Have to is wrong, I am gonna because I love to visit the old fire crackers XD, anyway I am out of here, if I have any other updates I will post ‘em! Ttyl!~RK

Damn!

Have I been busy whoo! Lotz of homework, and now about to color eggs lol, yes I know I am an adult but I still love coloring the darn things! A friend is gonna come over and help so that’s nice . Nothing else new though im sorry to report, but mmmeeehhh lol. Anyway have a wonderful day! Might post back later.

Woot!

Were goin bowling :P just not sure when, but im happy and excited about that lol...My dog is plopping all over the darn place its adorable...What else what else what ellllse....WINNING, lol I find this whole thing with charlie sheen funny as fuck! I was bored and searching pictures through Google of him getting a laugh when I came across this, some people don't find the "Are you a Wizard" Meme funny but I do :( Srsrry. But i love it lol.
Here it is:

 Who ever made it is a Wizard lol. Also I can't seem to find it on the Google machine now :( Maybe someone took it down? I don't know but darn it! Lol. Oh well :) I hope more evolves with charlie because I can't get enough!














Copyright...Who ever made it and who ever it is i guess? I didn't make it so its not mine D:

Life life life~

So how is life? Fine for me so far, I have ups I have downs, I used to have a lot of downs but now-a days its getting lower the rate I have them, which is wonderful!! I have been drawing quite a bit the last few days, which is nice, I also got a 3ds its damn awesome! I got super street fighter 4 3d edition for it, being a fan of street fighter and seeing such high praise for it, I had to get it as the game for my 3ds! And it works pretty good Though I am having a hard time adjusting to the thumb stick, I usually used a controller and used the D Pad on them, and as such its sort of hard…You know SNES Street Fighter 2…Which I love ahaha. Also alpha 3 for SNES… But I am loving it, the 3d effect is amazing, but when you use it on the music player with the ship one, I was blown back, most of the graphics are actually better than the 1000 dollar 3-d televisions with glasses, the only beef is that you need it to be at a certain angle and such, and with anything can cause eye strain…Also I have to take my glasses off, which is something I usually do anyway because it hurts to focus on reading or such with them on, with me being near sited its pretty good fit! I got the blue one, it reminds me of the nice bowling balls that’s at the local alley..Speaking of which I should really really..really..Get the friends together for a night of bowling again soon..Haven’t happened in…4 months maybe? I really enjoy those times..! I know I know, I ramble on and on but if my friends ever saw this they would at least now what I am up too and my personal thoughts. Phew!
I can’t believe how time has passed! I mean look at me! I am 18, in college classes and soon to graduate from highschool, I am amazed at how fast life goes by you..But in all honesty I am happy that highschool is almost over in my life..2 more months and I am free! FREE From it!!! HAha, now if I could just forget what has happened in the past I would love it.
Oh well, signing off for now! Talk to ya’ll later!

Problem with games D: -_-;.

Ok, so for the last 1.5 years I have been trying to get into and play Dungeons and Dragons (Longer but I started searching around and such about that time frame), and I must say..In order to play I have to drive (rather get someone to drive me) 40 miles for one game –_-; Now while it would be ok once or twice, its something that I think would be very fun and relaxing to do as a hobby, so once or twice is a bit small.. But I guess I won’t give up hope.. I keep asking around and maybe I am bound to find some people, but until then I have found some modified rules, which are from outdated(Advanced DnD 2nd edition I think), when it wasn't so intensive on saving rolls, and that’s actually interesting to me…So I am reading em’… I might beable to persuade a friend into playing..>I would like that actually XD ahaha the modified rules are simple…. The file is only 4 pages of rules and items and such, the rest is adventures ahaha.
Im also going to buy the DnD starter kit(from 2010), it looks like the old school shiz, and is a great spring board that will teach me how to play the 4th edition rules! Hopefully I can enjoy both! I’m going to read the rules and enjoy them a bit now..Or try to, nite lol....
UPDATE: I can't sleep :( But thats alright, because its sunday...And soon I will be out of school, which is hellz to the ya! Ahaha. Ps its 4:00 am -_- and I am not even tiered.

And were back!(I am hoping)

Also for some reason my blog entries haven’t shown up for the last 2-x months haha…I reinstalled Windows so now I am certain it will work! So yay!